Questions...

juz b4 i wanted to call baby to tell her about the university email at ard 3pm, my galgal asked me some questions. everytime i hear her saying she wanna ask me some questions, i am always scared. cos i know, everytime i will hear those questions dat i wouldnt wan to hear. (or see) she asked me the following questions...

if one day she wants to take a break from the relationship and tink of wad we 2 really wan in the future, will i be ok wif it?
i told her i will support her decision if she really wants it this way. i will not object to her decision n will support her in wadeva decision she makes. n i told her she shld know me well by now dat i will not get angry or agitated so easily n will take things calmly.

if at any time in the future she managed to find someone better than me dat can give her more than i give her, will i be ok wif it?
i told her again, if dat person is better than me in anyway, go ahead for it. if he can give her a better future, then go ahead. loving someone doesnt mean possessing dat someone, so long as she is happy, i will be happy. (as i was talking to her at this qn, tears was already rolling in my eyes...)

did i answer those questions above wif my heart?
i told her yes, i answered those questions frm the bottom of my heart so she can keep her mind at ease. (even though i couldnt bear to answer in dat way, but i wouldnt wan to see her get hurt or sad over this kind of things ma...)

will i blame her for changing of heart in future?
of course i wont blame her, if this really happens, wadeva we hv gone thru, will be kept in my memory n buried deep in my heart for me to look back.

her last question to me was, if the above really happens, she hopes dat i can find a better person than her. i juz hope it wont end up tis way...

as i was writing this post, my tears keep dropping... tis has been my first time dropping tears ever since almost 5yrs back... at the same time i was listening to Ti Amo... haiz... i was feeling as though my heart is about to be shattered any time after this, like a time bomb waiting to explode... guessed i muz hv put a lot into this relationship myself, even though i always tell ppl nt to give in 100%, haha...