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haiz... everytime i tink of this topic, i tink i m rather cmi. i dunno y wor, i juz feel i m more useless than anyone else. onli that i keep myself optimistic in the things i m doing. when i see ppl who are doing the same things as me and they know so much more than me, i feel like a useless rubbish. when it comes to explaining y this y dat, i dunno hw to explain. when i hear ppl talking about things dat i dun understand but i know hw to do, i feel very small. feel like i hv been thrown into a deep deep hole (where i can find wireless in india 800m underground :x). although i m one of those few in my grp of frens who can assemble/repair computers, i still feel like i m a newbie. i may have worked wif my cousin together to assemble/repair hundreds of computers over a period of 6mths, i still cannot make sure wad errors are wad. i m like doing a search for a needle in the ocean for error sources. i hv been assembling computers for at least 7yrs, nt regularly but onli when my frens need me. well, i admit i do know a bit abt computer hardwares, but i m still newbie on it. i hv created miracles for failed hardware, OS, but as i hv said, i dunno the reason behind. even when i do programming, i know hw to program in .net, but i dunno a lot of fundamentals behind it. cos i wasn't on any courses except hands on practical n basic knowledge during my poly days. when it comes down to work, i hear ppl explain to me a lot of advanced things on .net, i totally dunno... like content types, content management, document management, data connection, etc... actually all i dunno a shit about them. i recently onli know wth they are. i feel like i cant accomplish anything big, although i hv tot of opening restaurant/lan shop/games company. haiz. y i dun talk so much wif grp of frens, cos sometimes they talk, i dunno wad to say. my mind always thinking of other things until i dunno wad to say. aiyah, overall i m juz a useless guy. :) see, wad i hv said abt those above is all dat i know i can really do n nt advanced mode. i practice, but i dun learn. dat makes me quite useless, dun u tink so. :) when i see carefree ppl who hv nth to worry, i envy them. i oso wan to hv nth to worry. i m trying very hard, but everyday i wake up, i worry abt a lot of things. i try to make myself jovial, laugh whole day, be happy. but b4 i slp, a lot of tots come to my mind... a lot a lot... haiz...