Mr Big + Samantha?

hmmm, after watching sex and the city twice, i feel like i m the small version of Mr Big and a bit of Samantha.

in the movie, he lets Carrie take over all the major events and allows her to organize to her liking. then after which he realise, does he even wan dat big attention dat Carrie is looking for? Mr Big then make this mistake by running away on the day of marriage and it seems like an insult to Carrie. of course this was a very big mistake from the start, however this was of course partly caused by Miranda's words. at the end, the both of them still got married.

Samantha, in the movie, is saying that she has been lost recently. always mentioning her bf more than she mention herself. but b4 that the past 3 yrs, its all about her and not her bf. so i oso tink its something like me in 2day's situation. (of course dun mention the sex part, its out of point for me)

y do i feel like i m a combination of both? cos like samantha, for the 1st 2yrs, its more of like, i m being 'surrounded' by my gal gal. but now is the other way round le. as to mr big, is becos i let my gal gal do all the decisions for the 1st 2yrs or so. n now its my turn to do some of the decisions for us. see, really a combination of the both of them. well, juz to say dat i kinda like the way i m in now. i do not know whether my gal gal like this 'arrangement' or not.

in my mind, i m always asking myself, m i the right guy for her? m i gd enugh for her? does she tink she is gd enugh for me? does she wan to be wif me forever? or does she wan to go for a better choice? aiyah, y m i tinking of all these... making myself even more worried onli... but i juz hope dat when i go overseas for my studies, there wont be any changes. dun wan to be like the guy in Made of Honour who becomes the Made of Honour instead of the groom. if then, i will be quite devastated, no direction, mind blank blank... etc etc... by then i would not have anyone to back me up le. (by the time i return shld be 28yrs old le, omg... so old le...)

anyway, juz a piece of thought which i tink after i write down, i feel much better. if anything really happens, i can always look back to this post and face the wall... :)